To all my dear friends who have checked on me be it online, in person, or through my blog… THANK YOU . This has been a few of the most painful weeks I have ever experienced (or will probably ever experience). There is no pain like losing your sister or someone you love for that matter. So many things about her life remain a mystery to me. I just didn’t get the chance to ask. More honestly, I just did not make the best of our opportunities. I knew I was losing her for quite a while. We never talked about it. It was almost as if I understood she was dying more so than she did. Becky had an incredible amount of strength. I will post more about our story sometime and how we actually came to find each other.
For now though, I send heart felt thanks to those who thought of me. If you are trying to get past a death or loss and think you are going to die in the process, I can now say I identify completely. There were days I did not want to eat, breathe, or live. I felt responsible, guilty, and weighed down by all the things I should have done while she was alive.
Here is what I have learned from the past few weeks:
Cherish every moment you are given
Never hold back how you feel about a person
Have faith that the incredible pain will subside
Celebrate peoples lives
Do not dwell in what could have been. Focus on what you now have the power to change.
Hoping everyone is well. Will be getting back to posting in the near future.
Thank you for your patience.