You know those moments when you have to lay out your work out clothes to inspire yourself to work out the following day? I had the same moment yesterday when it came to church. Not only did I lay out my clothes but I bought a new shirt at Old Navy for church. Everything was ready. I found myself crying on the drive to church today and sitting in the car of the church parking lot. Looking around at all the dressed up people going in and out, I had a huge temptation to screech my tires out of their parking lot, never to look back. It felt intimidating to go in alone. It feels hard to do anything ALONE right now. Something in me though gave me the strength to sneak in and sit at the very last row of the church. I was seriously ready to make a mad dash if anything went wrong. What can go wrong in church?? I guess it’s just where my mind is at right now.
A very tall balding man came and plopped himself in the chair in front of me. No offense men, but if you are more than 50 percent bald, it may be time to just go for the shaved head look. Ladies do not like to look at a circle of skin on the back of your head. Anyway, I was afraid to move over for fear he would get offended I did. Before I could get too distressed though, my friends cousin spotted me in church and asked me to join her. Thank you Lord.
Todays sermon was on the new year. The preacher joked that so far, everyone had attended all his services this year (this was first Sunday of month). I’ve realized a preacher who can make me laugh is key to keeping my attention. We learned today that we must assume responsibility for our lives. It is not anyone else’s fault that we are where we are right now. We are the only people that have the power to change our situation. He explained that the three words that could change our life are= DO IT NOW. That we should expect God to help us though in this process.
My favorite verse today was:
Proverbs 12:22 (GNT) Being cheerful keeps you healthy. It is a slow death to be gloomy all the time. (I guess eeyore is screwed! haha awww poor eeyore)
Ecclesiasted 11:4 If you wait for the perfect conditions, you will never get anything done.
The above things are what I needed to hear today.
I realized it takes courage to walk into church.
I used mine today ❤